Lately, it feels like I’ve been looking for ways to stay complacent and mediocre in God’s sight. He has nudged at me a hundred times, and I just refuse to and cannot listen. I’m convinced but also doubtful. I’m encouraged but very careful and precise.
I weigh the cost- Maybe? Maybe not? What if i fail and fall flat on my face? What if i acquire too much and get blinded by the love of a soulmate?
No, I’m not having it, I would rather stay here in the quiet.
I have a lot of complaints about the world and everything in it.
So many ideas and situations, fighting and trying for my life.
Thoughts of ambition and the Fear of facing the Sun.
What if I get burned? What if I’m blinded? What if I’m bullied back into the shadows?
But what if it costs me something?
I take a leap of faith and fly. Bury my muster seed and it grows into a beautiful forest?
Then I remember.
He is the giver of life. The one who can make and break us, but he’s also the one who deserves it all. Who takes away my taste so I can hear loudly how my heart falls in sync with his?
He’s the giver of all, so why not just give him my all?
So this is to the future You.
I hope you’re proud of who you’ve become. You smile a little harder because painful discipline yielded you something. You’re proud to be loved and unashamed of your downfall. Your fruits are beautiful and up for auction with the highest bid.
Accepting and rejoicing in your victories. Most importantly, I hope you fought with the Almighty and Won.
